I am not a writer
yet here I am!
For many years, I have told myself that writing is not a skill I have. I was not good with words. I was great with visuals, but words no. Yet I had an epiphany recently that whatever milestone I hit in my life, or ‘event’ that comes my way…. I write. Which is hilarious to think that I am not a ‘writer’. I feel writing physical words down, helps me process and feel the feels.
I have tried to think back about what has given this me notion, as it’s something I have truly believed for many years. I am the first one to put my hands up to say, I am not great at grammar, and structuring sentences ‘properly’. However in the world of ‘AI’ gumph (love that word!), I feel maybe my style (yes I am calling it a style!) of writing, might feel more authentic, due to its lack of structure and grammar.
For many years, I used to write a blog to capture my creativity, travels and general thoughts. It bought me so much joy, and I love to look back at it every now and then to remind myself of what I got up to. I wrapped this up back in 2015. I wrote this blog for so many years, and grew a small following and then one day I just stopped.
I stopped as I became quite concious of what I was putting out into the world and what I was portraying and became very self aware. I felt disconnected from it. The same thing has happened to me with instagram. I used to to love this app, and posting my daily or weekly shots. However I started to feel it lost its authenticity, and became more ‘showy’. The algorithm showed me more and more ‘ads’ and influenced posts. It started to bring me less joy and more stress if I am honest. This was around the time my mum passed away, and it made me really think and reconsider my usage and what I put out into the world (again!). I also became very aware of who I was posting since I have had my son. I am very aware of his privacy and what he would want put into the world. I asked him once and he said he didnt want to go on ‘instagram’.
That was when I stopped posting as I realised most of my life, is his life. Something I have been working on…. but that is a story for another post.
So I have decided to put my beliefs to the side and start writing more. I feel a lot of you wont want to hear what I say, but I want this to be my spot on the internet, to share my love of cornwall, my recent reads, and general ramblings. I hope you get some joy out of my writing, as it brings me joy to do it, and thats why I remember why I write. I dont do it for you, I do it for me.
So I am going to leave you with a question…. What are you going to do this week to bring you joy for you, and just for you?